Friday, October 10, 2014

Scared to death

Among all of the things. I struggleeveryday with the guilt of losing my Mom to Suicide. What kind of a person stops talking to their mom?! Me thats who. Every anniversary that comes is harder and harder. Im real good at pretending now to be sane and happy. If feels wrong to be happy when she was so obviously miserable. I miss the small things, laughter and late night talks. I just feel lonely without her. I just dont know how long this can go on.
If thats bad enough Im having a health scare right now. It could be the "C" word. Im terrified and again trying to be strong. Words of advice, go get your mammogram.

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